Bye Bye Pounds, I won't miss you

So. I did my healthy eating plan for 19 days instead of 21 days. I went to Arizona and on Day 19 I went to Denny's after a Jeff Hunt Band show and actually sat just to chat and didn't eat anything. I thought that would be difficult, but it wasn't even hard. I still had just as much fun talking and laughing with everyone as I did when I had greasy food. Perhaps even better because it wasn't followed by guilt and stomach pains, and it was free.

The rest of the week went better than usual, but I allowed for some vacation food. We had some Buca Di Beppo, terrible food at Amazing Jakes, frozen yogurt, and chocolate for our girls night. However, I avoided much more than I usually would have in general, and interspersed lots of green smoothies. Actually, when I got home and weighed myself I had lost weight. Starting these habits changed me. Even when I am not perfect, I am still better.

The next week of being home I got a bit worse. That is the way with slippery slopes. Not TERRIBLE, but I started eating out with Ken again (Chipotle and Paradise Bakery, but those are gateways drugs, ha ha). We had some frozen yogurt which set me off on ice cream. I bought and ate in 2 days a container of slow churned ice cream, and then we got a box of skinny cow ice cream sandwiches and on Saturday October 1st I ate and embarrassing amount of them. Probably 10 in one night. I felt like a monster who couldn't stop. So I vowed to go back to straight smoothies again for a while.

I started my smoothie fast on Sunday October 2nd. I allowed for a bit of healthy popcorn (I cook it in coconut oil and grind some sea salt on top, nothing else, I like it WAY better than regular popcorn actually) when I am desperate to chew something. I was only going to do 3 days, but I weighed in this morning at 141.5 pounds. That is the lowest I have been since October of last year! Because of the "break" I must have built up toxins again because I am back to losing a pound of day. Man that is so satisfying. So this makes a total loss of about 10 pounds in 1 month despite my lack of perfection. Green smoothies all day is a guarantee for weight loss. I feel so happy to have it in my tool kit. If I go to far I just bust them out again and get back on track.

I also noticed during my two weeks of slipping that I was tired all the time. The lethargic feelings came back and it was hard to go to the gym. I felt tired, but didn't rest as well as I did when I was being healthy. It is amazing what a difference it makes. I feel like I have lost all control and I give in to it, but I don't like it. My apartment got messy because I was too tired to clean and it just slowly builds this darkeness in my life. It feels good to be in control again. Everything feels fresh, bright, and green again.

My goal for years has been to break 130. My ultimate goal is to fluctuate around 125, never allowing myself to go over 128 and I know now how to use smoothies to shoot it back down if I can just get there. It has always felt so impossible. I haven't been that low since my Jr year of high school and that was only after doing weight watchers. One of my "26 things before I am 26" goals was to break 130. I put it on there, but I didn't really think I would make it. Especially not when I was up in the 150s a few months ago. Now, I feel like I can actually make that happen before my birthday. I only have a few months to go, but even if I only managed a few pounds per month I can make it!

I can finally get to my dream weight so that having a baby doesn't destroy me. When my mom was pregnant with me her start weight was 125 and her final weight was 151! Her weight fully pregnant was my current weight in August. Yikes. I am just so excited. I need to feel this way to remind me to keep it up when it gets hard. It is a struggle everyday, but I sure do love to feel like I am winning.